For a long time I've been neglecting my relationship with God. So, the other day I decided to pick up my bible and start reading what he has to say. Something struck me while reading
The Laws of Prosperity by Kenneth Copeland regarding God's covenant to his people:
Before the world was created, the Word already existed; he was with God, and he was the same as God. From the very beginning the Word was with God. Through him God made all things; not one thing in all creation was made without him. The Word was the source of life, and this life brought light to mankind. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has never put it out. (John 1, v1-5)
I'd always thought that if God was really serious about using me as his servant that he'd reveal himself to me in a way that would confront my comfort zone. I'm talking about an apparition or some wierd, cooked event that I wouldn't be able to avoid. Was I ever off the mark.
What I'm beginning to realise is that God's Word
is his revelation to us and is much a message to me as it is to you and everyone else. It's a contract founded on 100% truth and purity. I've always had a huge problem determining how deep to go when reading the bible. I'm a quantitative person - if you ask me to ride a bike I'll start outlining limits for peddling speed, seat height, brake application - everything gets measured and tuned. So, when I'm told to "read the bible" I start freaking out about how much to read, how deep to go, whether I should focus on a single verse at a time. As I'm reading I start worrying about whether I've missed something crucial that is required for the next verse. It's probably what I love about programming so much: it's deterministic and predictable.
Ahhh, but what a relief to realise that the Holy Spirit is with me when I'm reading. He helps me grok the verses and keeps those parts that are required for the next verses in memory. In other words, I get a wholesome understanding instead of panicking about what meaning to take and what to leave. With the Holy Spirit walking me through the passages I don't feel like I'm missing out on God's message.
And so, Dear Reader, I will share my journey with you as I read God's Word. I've started reading Ezekiel and all I can say is that he's one willing servant of God.
A prayer asking the Holy Spirit to open your heart and mind to the Word:
Dear God,
I ask that your Holy Spirit guide me through your Word. Help me unlock the meaning and understand what it is you're telling me. Your Word is your covenant to me and I want to learn more about you. I pray for an open mind so that I can hear the message you have for me.
I ask this in Jesus' name,
Amen.